the last day of school really really sucked.

everything i thought would happen didn't happened.

and i didnt even know why i am so stupid to even write 32 personalised letters to everyone in the class when i know that some would throw them away someday.

I love the house of cards and Sharifah. Do you love me too?

that was what i wrote on the 13 cards that none of them bothered to find out.

and i was really excited to go out with them and eat sushi as planned.

then there was a sudden change of plan to eat somewhere else.

and i cried.not because they didn't want to eat sushi but because they disappointed me really bad.

they didn't know how excited i was to eat together with them.

they didn't know that i actually had opinoions and thoughts.

i shouldn't have shown my unhappiness.

i should have just followed their opinon but then

i wanted to stick to my own plan for once

because i realize that i was just following what they do.

and i felt so guilty when athirah didn't follow because she didn't like sushi

i shouldn't have shown my unhappiness right?

in the end we all went to eat sushi

but it was really horrible

everyone was indirectly blaming it on me

saying how they could have bought more food that are cheaper and tasted much better

"i thought the last day of school would be much more fun"

that sentence really burned my insides when you said that

be strong asyiqin .